I love that it’s starting to feel like fall again. This summer has been brutally hot. My poor lawn looks like withered, uncooked, squiggly spaghetti. But cool breezes have begun to weave their way back into the air. It’s been much more pleasant to take long walks on nature trails with my girls. I’ve even been able to wear a hoodie a few times. The changing weather feels especially significant because it aligns with some significant change in my life.

You may have noticed it has been a while since I posted more than a quick pic of latte art (can I call it that?) on my site. That’s because I’ve jumped into an exciting, chaotic, and scary new normal, and I’m worried about sharing too much publicly. But I fear this worry has clouded my creativity and made it harder to write about anything.

This big change is good. It is actually one of the freest and happiest times of my life. But I’m hesitant about oversharing the details right now.

With change has come stress, and I’ve found that has made it hard to get excited about new things to write. It has been a while since I’ve furiously scribbled exciting new ideas in the shower.

So with this little post, I hope to get the ball rolling back in the right direction.

I believe God drops little gifts of insight into our laps, and those gifts are meant to be shared. They can be profound, or not. They can resonate with a lot of people, or nobody. But each gift of insight that we chase is valuable, at least in the pursuit of conveying it as clearly as we can. The pursuit is a source of joy and growth.

For example, this bible verse has been stuck in my head for weeks since I first came across it. It just feels so relevant to my situation right now:

Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls.
Jeremiah 6:16, NIV

As I see it, I’m standing at a crossroads in life. My desire is to jump right in and figure things out, but this verse says “and look”, inviting me to pause and consider my situation. Should I go left, right, or straight? I love the idea of looking for the ancient paths and the good way. For some reason, “ancient paths” brings to mind an old dirt trail overgrown on the sides by long grasses that leads to a dense thicket of blueberries. This imagery is refreshing, especially contrasted with my natural way of trying to figure things out: burying myself in YouTube videos, articles, and other short-lived, digital sources. If I had it my way, I would sprint down the right path once I’ve found it, but this verse reminds me to “walk in it”. That is the way to a restful soul. And in a time of change, nothing sounds better to me.

That’s a little insight, and I could have never shared it with anyone. And maybe sharing it now will have no value to anyone else. But that’s okay. The pursuit of conveying the idea has itself been valuable to me.

So to wrap this up, I’m still here and still longing to share. I’ve had some big changes that I’m both excited and scared about, but above all I’m grateful for this new season I’ve stepped into. I’ve been using big life change as an excuse to keep me from seeking and sharing the insights coming my way. But starting today, I’ll be seeking, and I’m excited to share what I find with you.